Saturday, October 19, 2013
As an au pair, I feel like I always have to have on my happy face. If I'm not smiling, the family asks if I'm okay. If I want to go to bed early, they ask if I am sick. If I spend a Saturday alone in my room reading or watching Gilmore Girls, they ask if something is wrong. It's like I am never allowed to just be me and have real emotions. I can't be anti-social or tired or sick of the weather.
It's a little overwhelming sometimes. I am generally a happy, optimistic, glass-half-full kind of gal. But sometimes, it's refreshing to be alone. Or to get mad at the constant rain. Or go to bed at 8 PM. I'm only human.
This life is a balancing act. I'm trying to navigate my way through this one day at a time. Somedays it's easy. Others, not so much. Living with a new family, and getting paid by them, is a challenge. I am here to do a job. But I am still a person with feelings.
This post really doesn't have a point. I'm just airing out my thoughts. Life in a foreign country is not always so glamorous. It's still life. It still has its ups and downs. And no matter where you are, you still have to find the balance.